The Sky is Falling!

Reader be advised this is a rant.  I warned you.

Why is it that when new challenges arise, good or bad, everything else in my life seems to throw it self up in the air and I am expected to continue to be happy and smile and deal with it all gracefully?  Well I quit!  I will no longer try to be happy about the crappy things and I will no longer pretend to be responsible or act like a civil adult.   I think I'll resort to crying and eating cookies, that sounds much nicer.  (Any one who wants to donate to my cookie fund is more than welcome to.)

I can't say all the reasons that my personal sky is falling, but I'll share the more interesting parts:

Harlen's case with the state is being prolonged, due to some unknown reason we are still hanging here, waiting to find out if he will be our son or not.  This will most likely be dragged out to all kinds of great lengths and we have no idea when and if his adoption will be final.  Can you say stress?
Harlen has recently had some medical concerns, and I think his doctor is a quack!  This Dr. is adding more gray hairs to my head than I prefer to admit to.  I should send him a bill for my hair dye! 
I have three children in my home under the age of 4.  This fact alone would send some people running.
My dear sweet husbands job is sending him away for a while, a long, long while.

In the midst of my pitty party I must admit to being overjoyed at one thing.  We are having another baby!  We were told that this was not possible, which is why we made the decision to be a foster family.  Miracles do happen!  I'm due in the middle of December.  I am in awe at the tender mercies the Lord gives to us.  While I am sad and stressed out about other things in my life, I am so thankful and overjoyed at the opportunity to be pregnant again.  Ila has proudly announce to several people that "my mommy has a baby in her tummy!"  My secret was leaked out a little before I was ready to tell, but when considering everything else going on, perhaps people should be warned and advised that I may be a little cranky and weepy.  So far pregnancy has brought only hunger and crankiness, which can both be controlled with the right combination of snacks and naps. 

So you see why I feel like my sky is falling?  I will be okay though, remember I'll be eating cookies, and a good cookie can fix almost any problem.